"" aWaReNesS Of PaInFuL HeaRT .. ""

This pain is not to make you sad, remember. That's where

people go on missing.... This pain is just to make you more alert--because people become alert only when the arrow goes deep into their heart and wounds them. Otherwise they don't become alert. When life is easy, comfortable, convenient,who cares? Who bothers to become alert? When a friend dies,there is a possibility. When your woman leaves you alone--those dark nights, you are lonely. You have loved that woman so muchand you have staked all, and then suddenly one day she is gone.Crying in your loneliness, those are the occasions when,if you use them, you can become aware.The arrow is hurting: it can be used. The pain is not to make you miserable,the pain is to make you more aware! And when you are aware, misery disappears.

by osho

WHaT SHOULD I DO ?

"" When I let you go one step further , my eyes overflow with tears ..When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling .. As you move away to a place where I can’t reach you, even if I reach out my hand ..

I can’t catch you, I can only cry ..

What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving ..What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me ..

I love you, I love you, I cry out to you ..

But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart ..

All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again ..

All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you ..Although you went to a place where I can’t hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you ..

I can’t find you, I can only cry ..

What should I do? What should I do? I can only see you ..What should I do? What should I do? I love you only ..

I am sorry, I am sorry, can you hear me? ..

Please come back to me, if it’s not you, I can’t go on ..

What should I do? What should I do? I only have you ..

What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving ..What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me alone ..

I love you, I love you, I cry out to you ..

But you can’t hear me because I am only shouting in my heart .. ""

aku mohon kepada dirimu
jadilah engkau sang pelindung cintaku
saat diriku ingin mendampingimu
ku rasa engkau semakin menjauh

ku terima untaian kata terindah
saat lidahmu ikut angkat bicara
meski kau telah meludah dan berdusta
namun ku ajarkan engkau bahasa cinta


ku arungi sebuah cerita cinta
antara aku, engkau, dengan dirinya
selagi aku berdiri dan bernyawa
ku kan mencoba dan terus berusaha


ku terima keputusan itu
walau terasa menyayat di hatiku
saat diriku ingin mendampingimu
ku kan mencoba dan terus berusaha


* ku tanyakan bulan, ku tanyakan bintang
kapankah engkau datang tuk menemui sayang
ku tanyakan bulan, ku tanyakan bintang
aku memanggilmu tapi engkau tak mendengarku
** adakah jawabnya saat ku bertanya
di sini ku menunggumu
adakah jawabnya saat ku bertanya .. ~ 

"" L O N E L I N E S S . . . . . ~ ""

BENCI !! 

BENCI dengan rasa itu .. 

BENCI bila rasa itu menghimpit jiwa ..

BENCI saat rasa itu menyelubungi malamku ..

BENCI rasa itu menyebabkan aku menangis ..

KENAPA ?

KENAPA ia hadir .. ?

KENAPA aku perlu lalui semua itu .. ?

KENAPA aku yang dipilih .. ? 

KENAPA bukan DIA .. ? 

AKU ! 

AKU yang sakit ! 

AKU yang merana ! 

AKU yang parah ! 

AKU YANG TERSAKITI DENGAN KESEPIAN ITU ..

B E N C I . . . .  ! KENAPA AKU ? ! AKU BENCI DENGAN KESEPIAN !